Been a While

Hey all..

I have been some what absent from the blogging in the last little while. I do apologize.

Things are going well. I haven't been working out as much as I should, and I'm sure it will show when I do my weigh in. I was down another 2lbs but that was at my home scales not the scales at Vickie's. That's a total of 17.8lbs. I am very proud.

With that being said, I really am struggling with all the Easter chocolate and eggs lying around. I won't lie, this hasn't been the best week of eating or self control. I even indulged in a bag of chips. I did feel guilty right after eating the bag(I did share with others). I find it interesting at the guilt. I honestly feel terrible after eating "junk" like that. WHY do I do that?? I CRAVE all night to the point where I can't get my mind off of those RED, amazing tasting chips. Then after I eat them, I feel completely yucky and bloated and know that I really can't complain, since I knew it wasn't the best thing for me. Ketchup Chips are my weakness. Just a few posts ago I even said "I CAN'T eat them again- It's an addiction.. It really is. The only person to blame is me. I really want to make everyone proud, I want to eat healthy, I want to run a 5K. I have these ambitions, and I won't give up on them. I just fall into old habits, really really quickly. I know this sounds negative and it's not. It's just me processing this incredibly FUN, yet difficult journey.

Okay- I will tell you where my little bump on the road started (This is not a Poor me moment, this is me being completely honest). A year ago I made a goal to run the 5K next week-end in Frankville with a very close friend of mine. I have worked on this running thing, and I do enjoy it very much. However, with so much sickness in my home since Christmas, there has been a MAJOR decrease in training and I tried a run last week and came to the realization that I'm only doing about 2.5Km's(if that) and I am not at the point where I can continue. I am NOT ready for a 5KM run next week, and I guess I'm disappointed in myself. That being said, I wouldn't call this a Failure, because who would have thought that I'd ever beable to run as much as I am a year ago??? Not I!!! Therefore, it's not a fail, it's a "I'm not ready". I am so proud of my girlfriend as she is going to do this Run next week-end. I wish I was joining her, but I am at the point where I know that I'm just not ready. And I know that THAT is okay.

I still have a goal to do a 5K I just have to figure out that once I"m ready. I am ready :)

I hope this isn't too depressing. It's not meant to be. I'm still journey on this weight loss/healthy eating. People ARE starting to notice, which isn't why I'm doing it, but MAN does it feel great to hear "Wow you're looking great?" or "ARe you losing weight" YES YES I am Thank you for noticing.

Anyhoo. I will be in touch to let you know how I'm doing.

Love you all

Heidi

Terrible blogger but doing very well

Hey World.. It's been a LONG time.

One of my favorite verses is "I can do all things through Christ Jesus who gives me strength"

This Verse has been my life verse for the last several months. I have been working VERY hard on this healthy, lose weight journey of mine. I really started about a year ago, but REALLY started in January(if I was totally honest). I entered the Biggest Winner contest at Vicki's and have been determined to Win. I am NOT in the lead at the moment, but I still feel like a winner. I'm getting weighed this afternoon, and I believe I should be down another 2lbs, which would put me down 15lbs since January. (Less the when Preston was born and this would put me at 220lbs-almost under the 220's sooooooooo excited) I am beyond proud. I know that this journey is FAR from over, but I know that GOD has given me the strength to continue. Yes in this time, I haven't ate very well on certain days, but I get back on the wagon, and I work out HARD!!!

I am not doing this to be noticed or given attention. I am doing this for my family, for my body, to get healthy and STAY healthy!!! HOWEVER, Sunday a few people commented on my loss' and I was overwhelmed and STINKEN excited. If people are noticing, then I must be losing this weight, and I know that I am getting active and healthy. I want to be around for my Babies graduations, weddings, Grand babies. The way I was going/growing, mostly likely it wasn't going to happen!! I knew this and it frightened me

I am continuing my running. I had a break with Winter and sickness, so this week I decided to get back on the wagon with this. I am determined to do the 5K run in May. I have said this since I started this journey. I WILL do this. Even if I'm the last at the finish line, I don't care, I want to prove to myself that I am capable of this run. Please pray for me, I have been fighting a chest cold, that has stressed my lungs out and making it VERY difficult to breathe right while running. However.. GOD IS MY STRENGTH when I'm weak.. I WILL do this.. I HAVE to. God is my HEALER too.

I'm also excited to be doing the "Relay for life" with a team called the "Pink Rockets" My friend Linda was diagnosed with Breast cancer on her 29th Birthday. I want to support her with this and celebrate that she is now in "remission" and can't wait for this night. I haven't done an all nighter in Years, but I'm excited to join this event and help fight this horrific disease. (So if any of you can support me by pledging my team, I'd appreciate it!!)

God has given me this life, I need to embrace every moment with a new exciting attitude. There are days when I feel down, but I'm finding that doing a Run or an aerobic DVD really does help the emotions. It's a GREAT stress relief. It really is!!!

I feel blessed to have 3 Healthy amazing kiddo's. We have our challenges, but I know that God has never given me something I can't handle.

Preston is walking, which keeps me hopping- Bennet is doing really well. We are already focusing on getting him prepared for Grade 1 next year. Mikayla is doing well, she has some issue's focusing and keeping on task, but she has such an amazing heart. She makes me so proud. (They all make me proud) I'm not sure if I put this in another blog, however I am so proud that I will continue to write this. Mikayla was on the playground and saw a Peer of hers become angry and started swinging. She saw that he was heading for a tiny Kindergartener, so she step in front of this "wee" one and took this guys HIT!! HOW amazing is that for a 7 year old to take a hit, to protect someone smaller then her. WHAT a heart. I pray that I can be the Mommy that God wants me to be for her. To teach her and guide her to his path for her life. She's an amazing little girl, and I am blessed to call her my daughter. I am blessed blessed blessed!!!!!

I will let you all know how Today goes after my weigh in. I'm thinking I'm down 2, but we will have to wait and see!

Thank you all for being such a great support. I am so thankful that God has placed you all in my life.

If I can do this.. I know that anyone can!!

Love and Blessings

Heidi