July just around the corner

Hello All. So I have to be honest... I am STINKING at this journey. I started strong and now have "slacked" these past few weeks. I really do want to get healthy, I want to get active. I am believing that this summer will bee a good one of activity and movement. I however, have had a very sick young family for the past few weeks and have had to stay home and nurse them. Therefore, I am NOT walking, I am NOT eating well, I am not losing weight.

I AM however determined and I WILL accomplish my goals. I just have to get my butt in gear.

I still have $6.00 for my Diabetes jar and I am hoping for more.

I did some gardening today. However, Larry did more, because the BUGS just GROSS me out. I start, then I see some bug that I've never seen before and I get the heebie jeebies. I guess I really have no Green thumb in me what so ever. It makes me sad, because my father is an incredible gardener and I am a good manager telling Larry what to do.. :) Our front gardens are looking wonderful, but our back yard is a MESS. We have to finish the last garden and then put down some grass seed. Here's hoping that after our camps we will get it done.

Well it's not a long post as Mikayla has just come home from school. Tomorrow is the last day of school for both kiddo's. Hard to believe that Mikayla is going to be 7 and Bennet 5. The years go by so so so FAST!!!

Blessings to you

Heidi

Doing well.. Celebrating my Babies Daddy!

Hello World..

I've had a great few days. Went away last week-end and I think I made some pretty good food choices. I didn't walk away going "ARGH"! Lots of salads, protein, and WATER.

It's interesting at how the Devil can effect me in my battle of self confidence. We were away for a time to "re-fuel" with many other Pastors and their family. Low and behold I was looking at all the BEAUTIFUL Pastor's wives, thinking to myself. "I don't look like them." However, God spoke clearly "You are my child, I made you, you are beautiful and wonderful" I struggled with HEARING what God was saying, however I am thankful to walk in this journey with God and myself.

SInce I've been home I have endured yet another illness. I am battling a "cold" like I never had before. It knocked me OUT. I haven't been active this week, so I am not even stepping near a scale. I'll wait until tomorrow. Start over again. I really do hope that I can get feeling better soon!!! Funny how when you start to do something GOOD for yourself spiritually, and physically- you come down with some sickness. I WILL NOT be stopped.

Today is Fathers Day. I am blessed to still have my Dad around. He's a great man. He may not always be "emotional" with me, but I know he dedicated his life to providing for his family. He's a hard worker, has worked in construction since he was 16. He's now 52 or 53, can't seem to remember, STILL working his butt off. I am thankful for him. He's become a fantastic Grandpa, that my children have fallen DEEPLY in love with. Thank you Dad for being you!!!

Larry, the LOVE of my life. (This may be cheesy, so if your stomach's can't handle it, don't read it.) LARRY- You are fantastic, amazing, generous, and oh so loving. Your babies are so blessed to have you. We have been through much in our 10 years together, but I will shout it out to the World. "I LOVE YOU WITH ALL THAT I AM". I really do respect you, even at times when I may not sound like it.. I really do. I feel so honored that God chose YOU to be in my life. Thank you for choosing me to be your wife. Thank you for being a diaper changer. Thank you for cleaning up boogers. Thank you for handling our children's Vomit, as I absolutely STINK when it comes to that. You wake up with our school aged babies and get them ready for the day, as Preston and I are catching up on the sleep we didn't get during the night. You never complain about it. I can tell that you Love your family, and I want you to know that WE the Kozlof Family APPRECIATE YOU!!! Thanks for being a Great man of God and an awesome role model to our children. You my dear- KICK BUTT.. And that is that!!!

I'll keep you all updated to my progress. It's been a challenge at this point as I love food!!

Thanks all.

Thought of the day- Some of you may not have a great relationship with your earthly fathers.. BUT your heavenly father LOVEs you. "He knows your name, He knows your every thought He sees each tear that falls and hears you when you call"

Get up Get up and Move

Hello World

Things are still at the 230lb mark. I've lost and now maintained. I am REALLY wanting to get moving more and hope to see this weight go. I am however struggling with "energy and motivation" All I want to do is stay in my Pj's and watch TV. I think that's my problem. I honestly believe that I have a "Spirit of laziness", which is probably the main reason I've gained the weight.

I can't afford to join the gym or classes, so walking and WII fit seems to be the only thing at this time. I just can't seem to get the weight to keep going down.. Yes a little discouraged but yet I'm still confident that in a year from now, I'm going to be healthy and look my best.

We are heading to a Young Pastors Time out tomorrow evening. I'm looking forward to this. Worship, the word, and family time. I am praying that I will get the chance to listen to God. Preston will still be with me, so sometimes it can be difficult to LISTEN. However I am expecting GREAT things for this time away!!

$6.00 is in my jar and I hope to add more REAL soon.

Be blessed my friends

Heidi

I did it!!!

I'm back on track. I weighed myself yesterday and was back up to 233lbs. I was actually relieved because I was scared that I would be up 5lbs so 1.8lbs was okay. I'm back down today at 230. So I'm excited and ready to go.

I tried "running" yesterday, and it didn't go so great. However, if I want to get off the couch and do my 5Km run in 11 months, I need to start training TODAY> I will try again this evening and see how it goes. I was wearing my I-pod trying to listen to worship music, while I push myself PAST my comfort. The problem... The earphones kept falling out of my ears. And my loss of breath was humiliating. My solution to this silly problem, well the earphone one, is I'm going to find Mikayla's Camp Rock earphones, they have the headband on them. THEN that should stay on my head!! The breathing problem, well that will come.

I am putting $6.00 in my Diabetes Jar today. Since I was soooo close to 3lb loss.
I think I may even decorate my jar. Pictures to post later!!!

I'm going out for lunch in about 20 minutes with my dear friend for her birthday. I'm planning on "healthy" choices and LOTS of water.

I am so thankful for you all reading this. Their are many of you out there doing this journey with me. KEEP it up!! You can do this. Veggies, fruit and wALKING!! 3 bite rule (which I struggle with).

Have a great day.


Heidi

MIKAYLA'S BLOG - WRITTAN BY MIKAYLA

To the World

Today was a good day because yesterday we moved our toy room to the old TV room. We played 3 to 4 times today. Bennet got Daddy to call him monkey, so then Daddy tickled him and I joined in to the fun. Then Mommy even joined in. It was FUN! When we were playing Mom stepped on my knee. I was okay in the end. Mommy is a silly tickle monster. I wouldn't do anything without her.

The food I had today was Toaster Waffles for Breakfast, Grilled Cheese for lunch, and my favorite meal PEORGIES!! We had "ice cream" for our dessert/night night snack.
Everything thing today was good, except when I got in trouble twice for throwing things when I got angry!!! But I'm not going to do that anymore.

It's time to go. Hope you comment on this.

Love

Mikayla

Thank God there is a Tomorrow

Well I have to admit, I have fallen off the wagon. I haven't checked my weight because of fear. I will check tomorrow. I've eaten everything in site and every "craving" I've had I have overindulged. I am confessing to you, and hope you aren't disappointed in me. I am in myself, but yet feel pushed to do better.

I noticed that my friend is doing a 3 month challenge and for every pound she loses she donates a toonie to her local food bank. I have decided that I too am going to do a challenge of such. For every pound I lose I too will donate $2.00 to the diabetes association. My husband has type 1 since he was six and I know many others that have it. I am actually very fearful that I'm headed in this direction too. I am excited about this and look forward to giving them a hefty donation :)

On a side note, Bennet was "observed" on Friday but "behaved" no melt downs. So I'm not sure what the outcome of this will be.

Preston is getting bigger and Mikayla is becoming a little "teenager". :)

Life is always interesting and we all have our moments. I thank God each day for my wonderful family. I can't even imagine where my life would be without him.

I hope you are all doing well. I will weigh myself tomorrow morning. I will blog tomorrow, unless I can't..

Peace be with you

Heidi

Things that make you go......

Couldn't think of a good title today, so thought I'd make you decide how to finish it.

My week has been a pretty good week. Still really struggling with food choices. We had a great day at the beach. By habit, I took chips. I haven't ate chips in almost 6 weeks and I once I started to eat them, the whole "3 bite rule" went out the window. However, I'm here today admitting that I may have ate plenty of Ketchup chips for the next year, but I'm Going to get this healthy thing up to par.

I've done my walking and have enjoyed eating salads. I LOVE salad to the core. However, I'm not seeing the results I'd like to, and in all honesty am feeling a little frustrated. I know that what I put into my mouth is probably the key reason I'm not losing as "fast" as I'd like. Therefore, starting right now... I WILL do my best and do it 100%.

I got a great email message today from a friend that I haven't seen in years. She sent me an encouraging e-mail to remind me that God is my security. I think by now, you probably have all figured out that I am a little "insecure" with my body. I too believe that I'm insecure with plain old ME! My friend has been reading a book by Beth Moore. She told me she's learned TONS from it. I must search for this book and read it myself. One thing that my friend said she learned from Beth Moore was " Insecurity will hold us back from fulfilling the call God has on our lives. He will not force "security" on us and no one else can give it to us. Insecurity is not a weakness...it is a form of unbelief." Boy did that "kick me in the pants" in a good way. Did I not just say that I was struggling with "the call" God has for me?? I do believe that my weight loss journey is not just for weight loss but also for me becoming a secure women of God. He does have a call for me, and I want to be secure enough in me and him, to do his will.

God is my life. Some of you that are reading this may know this or not. My life is for him. My husband and I live each day wanting to do God's will. We've been through up's and down's. We've moved a distance from family feeling "called" to Smiths Falls. I just want to live for him. I also want to see others "live" for him. Some people ask me "Why do you believe in a God that you don't even see". I say this. "I do see God. I see him in the beauty of our Earth, I see him in my children, I see him in my life and I can feel him when I sing" Who would have thought that a "Girl" from Ayton would be working in different communities, teaching and sharing the Love of God. My life proves to me that Yes there is a God. I'm not about debating or arguing until I'm blue in the face about God, that's not me. I don't feel intellectual enough to do so either.. I just want to show God's Love. It's that simple to me. I wish it was for others. I also believe because the day my Grandfather passed, he called my "name", his last words were "Heidi, Heidi, Heidi" and the REASON he called my name is because he had accepted Jesus on his deathbed, and I told him I was jealous that he was going to see my best friend. I told him to call my name when he saw him. HE DID!! not just once but 3 times. I can never ever forget that moment in my life. This story of my Grandfather is a much LONGER one, that I'd love to share with any of you. Maybe I'll blog it some other day.

I guess what I'm saying today is. I will not give up on this journey. I also believe that there is a purpose for me, and I am going to live it out with Confidence, joy and perseverance.

Thanks so much for reading this and encouraging me. I have fallen in love with Blogging. I feel like this is a great way for me to "express" what's really happening in me. I find that I can express myself much better in writing. It's such a pleasure. Until next time.

Be blessed

Heidi


Thought of the day.
John 4:19

In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent His only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through Him. Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us, and sent His Son to be the satisfaction for our sins"